Day4:Journal

Much been said in today's lessons and much happened.

I got to meet the Master's first girl. She seems kind enough and well knowledge. Im glad to have the chance to meet and talk with her.
Im still quite shaken from what the Master had me do this day. Removing my belt, tossing it to the side then fetching it. Even the thought of it has my heart thumping and my breathing quickening. The thought of moving upon the command was a little nervous, yet thrilling almost.
And he is right, its best that I come to understand my Beloved, this way I know what to expect and how to please Him more. How much I want to please Him? How much I want Him happy and proud of me? He already knows that I would do anything for Him, that my feelings for Him is deep. As His feelings for me.
I missed out talking to Him this afternoon, making me sad, but I will make it up to Him fully. I want ot hear His voice and let Him know all that is happening.

The Master also requested and had me fix up his seal for him. Just placing 'Gunner's slave School," across the slaver seal. He was very pleased with it and Im glad to do such a small thing for him.
I feel so hot as my body tightens more and more each day as I recite the mantra and kneeling. Also, doing these little things has me going almost light headed, like being drained and dizzy.
I placed my hand to my throat earlier, as if i could feel the thin steel band upon it, then to my heart knowing that one is forming there as well, slowly but its there i could feel it as i could feel the young female struggling to come through. One so pleasing and sensual. I dream and wish to be her. Knowing that soon that dream be a reality.