Been already a week under the Master's training event though a part of it was on hold since he had to move. But, Im glad that he believes Im doing well.
Im still couping with my feelings, understanding them. I try to keep an open mind and relax, just to let everything flow smoothly. Granted, in the end I do find myself very light headed and drained. Guess it also doesnt help that Im an empath and trained myself to block out and keep emotions stable.
But here Im learning to let it go, one step at a time, easing it slowly. To let it flow quickly would be like drinking too much and too fast. Not a good combination.
I would admit, I did feel a little envious sitting and watching the Master and his toni, interact. But then, I remember about my Beloved and how He and I get along. Even through dreams.
Ever since He been talking about marking me and how He was going to do it, sends shivers through me and the tightening of my body. Plus, the dampness that I find as I wake. It all make sense after listening to the Master's words.
Soon, it will be reality, and not some dream. I soon wake to find myself kneeling before my Beloved, giving it all to Him. As I do so, then I know its no longer a dream but a reality. One I wish fully and only the gods would know.
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